I can relate… If it is worth doing, it must be done 100% right, first try, zero margin for error, no rehearsals, no practise round.
Like rocket science!
(Except I know that’s not how rocket science is done, either, but somehow that thought refuses to sink in)
Been diagnosed for about 10 years at this point and still doing that "ohhhh" constantly (as my op reply demonstrates lol)
It really is incredible to realise how much of ourselves we have to suppress or ignore or change just to fit in with NT expectations and rules.