Just wanna say I remembered that comment exists and I went back and read it when I first started on Vyvance like a bit over a month ago and it really helped prepare me lol

Another ReadFanon banger :3

That autism thing is so real, I’ve had my ND friends tell me I “seem autistic” for years but I didn’t actually think it was even a possibility until after I started on the meds lol

Am soooo glad you found something that seems to be working for you

In addition to all the other replies I just wanna say, cuz this is something I also worried about when I started, that I’ve been on Vyvance for a little over a month and I still get the ADHD-helping effects quite strongly lol. It varies ofc depending on how well I’ve been treating myself, like getting enough sleep and exercise, eating well, etc

I don’t feel like that… tingly, mood-lifting, stim-high feeling* as much but I’m still so surprised by how well I can focus on stuff now. The side effects (like me slightly chewing holes in my mouth the first few days wtf lol) were kinda scaring me but they mostly disappeared, especially after I quit caffeine which I had been using excessively for many years (one of the worst drugs imo, you maybe get like 2 hrs of anxious energy out of it on a good day in exchange for never sleeping well). For so many years I had just accepted my brain was just totally cooked forever and I was destined to just be tired and spaced out most of the time. Okay though, tbh, it doesn’t always mean I’m focusing on what I should lmao, but I can when/if I need to now (a lot of this energy has ended up going into projects lol). Also I have a control over eating that would have seemed impossible to me 2 months ago, for years I struggled with binge eating but now I can prepare a meal of an appropriate size, eat it, and then just… stop when it’s enough, consciously, and I’m already losing weight. Similarly to your experience, it took me a while, years in my case, to get diagnosed and then medicated by finding a doctor who actually listens to me and isn’t just mean. I have also been misdiagnosed as bipolar lol, by someone who wasn’t even qualified to do it and after I had already been diagnosed with ADHD

Idk, maybe I’m still in this “honeymoon phase” too but it feels… sustained so maybe this rly is just how it is :3

Also that “stimulants can bring out your autism more” thing is real lol. Idk if I’m just noticing it more or if it’s actually “”““worse””“” now but yeh hehe, I actually like it cuz I’ve been so out of touch with my feelings and masking behaviors for many years

Also also, I’m sure you’re good but pls make sure to stay on top of your needs cuz I have this ability now to just push through things like being hungry or thirsty or tired even when I should take a break and address them. Idk if that’s what it’s like for “normals” but… yeh. Is good, even if you’re working on some task, to just take a break and chill and listen to and address your needs like our comrade @ReadFanon@hexbear.net said or you will crash rly hard lol, as happened to me a few times

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Please, stop fighting, Hexbear is a chaos unity site

How can we expect to defeat necro-capitalism and its corpse emperors without all our contradictory aspects?

The Great Game has only precluded this

They have ARDS

Unending social murder

How many more will die to keep the blood-treats flowing?

Pls, not again

Same here, ty

Had one of our just-unbanned users drop a rly heartfelt reply about how the site helped her realize she was trans and get through some rly bad times in her life and it upset her a lot to see the behavior of some of the admins

It’s rly silly drama but the site has legit helped people

Okay I gotta log off fr now, am tired and this is starting to loop back around from upsetting to hilarious lol, bad state to be in for sincere talking and I spend enough energy on this

Edit: Post I mentioned is here if you wanna read: https://hexbear.net/comment/5618885

You’re right tbh

It rarely came up and ofc this being Hexbear it’s tangled in like 7 layers of irony and sincerity, but the vibe I always got was that “TC69 thought” was beyond criticism and everyone who did have something to say in response was either in the group of transphobe wreckers who got purged by her (based, good (that they got purged)) and anyone left from that time who still remembered it, besides the “”““legends””“” about her making everyone read based books, had stopped challenging it cuz of the aforementioned dogpiling

Until today, now it seems TC69 has stepped down again, deleted her account, and her partner has been banned and people are talking about it and criticising her in the YET-ANOTHER megathread

Wild day in niche bear-themed web forum history, the TC69 cult of personality has fallen?

I hope all this shit is entertaining to the Lemmygradians at least lmao

I feel exactly the same way tbh, I can go to a trillion other sites if I wanna do endless “actually, it’s kinda cringe that you care tbh” bits that also aren’t a bit where “you win” if you can pretend to be the most cool and detached i’m-not-online-i’m-just-here-to-observe-the-onlineness type person (I am also missing the joke here), I like Hexbear cuz of the sincerity

The misgendering ableist wrecker alts were rly exhausting tbh, especially when it seems like it’s someone here doing it who has been banned for the same shit before multiple times but is still allowed to do it (as of now, I’m not in the admin chats so ofc idk for sure)

Idk tbh, regardless I feel like they don’t have to be contradictory

I come to this site for the shitposts and the genuine discussion and political education resources

I should also mention the proposal post later also had statements from mods who said they proposed the idea cuz they thought “dunk” culture has “cishet white vibes”, which… idk, is maybe fair, Hexbear is rly white sometimes and I would hate for people to be put off by that (good reason to be put off ofc). It wasn’t rly elaborated upon though

I feel like this is exactly the irony poisoned toxic attitude that has led to this getting so bad :/

I wasn’t around during the early days, heard lots of good things about TC69, purging transphobe wreckers and making people read is based :3

But is kinda wild and not a good look that she showed up again one day, the biggest struggle sesh I have ever seen kicks off, Carcosa steps down, half-steps back up, then while they’re on break probably cuz of this whole stressful ordeal on this site they steward for us, she becomes head admin(?) again and immediately she and many of the new admins get so deeply involved in an obviously bad-faith way in this struggle sesh to the point of like 20 or 30 people getting bans where even the Lemmygradians are noticing that the site is exploding lol but ohhh this is all a joke ofc :) but it’s also not a joke and this site needs to get serious and we need more mega-purges but also reply here and I’ll use an RNG to decide how long to ban you, and also other random people with the same reason in the modlog

Now idk anymore, maybe this is what TC69-thought is

hehehe

Tbh I just ate some decent food (after not rly eating anything for a few days cuz of external factors™ in my kinda bad life-situation rn), pet a cat, read your reply in the struggle sesh megathread, feeling less bad about the whole thing

Really appreciate you genuinely just clarifying what happened including what the rest of the admin team saw, I feel like most of this is just rly bad communication primarily from admins/mods but also the rest of the users (sucked seeing Carcosa’s decision get completely torn apart so badly that they tried to resign before the userbase rejected that lol, I hope they not too about it especially cuz how much they do for our site regardless of this one thing). It’s still been a total mess but it’s nothing irreconcilable or unfixable

10/10 perfect bad-good-good-bad bit , I hope your recovery from food poisoning is going well

Long live the cabal :3

Yeah we probablydefinitely all need to relax lol, regardless there is def criticism to be made about this whole behind-the-scenes adminning thing that developed after our chaotic first year needing to… idk… have more democracy again? After this whole thing especially

I just saw a bunch of people get unbanned now so idk, hard to keep track of it all

I’m gonna go, like… make a meal and do and think about something other than niche web forum drama now lol

The issue wasn’t the name change, everyone was fine with that and it should be done cuz the term has a racist history

The proposal that started all this was removing “/c/the_dunk_tank” (where you can post bad takes and mock them however you like but they can’t be the bad takes of nobodies, so basically like shit_reactionaries_say) and “/c/the_dredge_tank” (for posting the bad takes of anyone, this was made after people got tired of seeing the lowest effort, repetitive, bad takes from random people so they could block the comm if they want) entirely and replacing them with “/c/counterpropaganda” (for posting instances of any reactionary rhetoric under the conditions that your post also had to include an essay countering the rhetoric) and “/c/gossip” (for posting only public figures’ bad takes, without the essay), the arguments for and against are in the 1200 reply struggle sesh post lol

Sry if you already know all this, I’m not sure how visible this has been to other instances lol

Idk, I get the intention behind it but it became clear this was poorly thought out and was not what most of the userbase (or the most active?) wanted. In the past certain issues like this have been resolved by purges (like our mandatory pronouns and anti-transphobia and anti-misogyny stances) of anyone who disagreed or couldn’t self-crit but this one does seem much more aimless and less concrete to me, to the extent it is even serious, tbh, idk :/

Late-stage irony poisoning

In addition to the first ban wave which was partially a bit or something cuz people requested to be banned so TC69 used a random number generator but also entries in the modlog that have the RNG stuff weren’t people who requested it??, some of our admins are now banning their alts as a bit to start drama, other obvious alts are coming out to call it out and continue more drama, there’s more but… you get the idea :/

Idk, this all started in an attempt to make our site more serious by replacing the_{dunk,dredge}_tank with higher effort alternatives and now that that didn’t go through it’s all a joke now

Honestly I may log off for a while too, is not rly that funny to me :/ People on this site have literally fed me and my friend, kept us out of overdraft status on bank accts, I learned so much from reading stuff here or books I learned about from here, people have been housed cuz of this site, someone nearby legit offered to take care of one of my irl friend’s pets when he was homeless for a bit, I met new friends here that I talk to every day. It’s not a political party but it’s not just a giant shitpost either, so idk where this is going :/

I’m sure this looks even worse from the outside , but it’s okay, site has survived worse

Like FuckyWucky mentioned, there is a lot of talking going on behind the scenes and no one outside rly knows what is going on sooooo… we see what happens I guess

Save me Victor Glushkov, save me, save me Glushkov

Nightmare

Beautiful, brave, thank you, you’re so brave, thank you

Certain dog

Actual image from ’s 1999 book “Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief”:

Check out the dergy :3

How did anyone take this man seriously lmao

Idk, I haven’t read the book, maybe it makes sense somehow and we’re gonna need to create a new category of super-genius in our ontologies and put Jordan B. Peterson in there, but it seems quite unlikely

I need to find a way to contact , I need to to teach him about Prolog or Datalog, I wanna see what kind of new ontologies he can cook up

Any suggestions for alternative systems? I fear his benzo and raw meat addled yet genius brain may not be able to handle this monumental task purely with text. We need categories here people, lots and lots of categories!!! Pictures would be nice too!!!

I can’t stop watching this, it’s incredible

A lion is an instantiation of an object in the category of dragon, the category of dragon is no less valid than the category of lion, IT ALL DEPENDS ON YOUR LEVEL OF ANALYSIS!!!

This is real philosophy, shut the fuck up Cultural Marxist s

WHO UP RN CATEGORIZING THEIR REALITY, CUZ I AM