Other responses here are pretty great advice. I just want to add that feeling this way is pretty normal in our modern world.
Our society evolved much faster than our biology. This world isn’t very satisfying with respect to the kinds of things our ancestors had to do I order to survive and be part of a group of other people. Most jobs feel unsatisfying because they are.
For example: it feels good to work a physically hard job in the same way exercise feels good, and yet physical work is often looked down upon as though there is no value in it (which is crap), and people who spend lots of time in a gym don’t face that same stigma about sweating.
The PS1 had a good Quake II port, which is even better with the flexibility of customizing the controls through emulators.