SunsetFruitbat [she/her]

My dad relapsing again pretty hard, but he is trying since like last week he was sober for a few days, before having trouble again. Since there are things that do trigger him like sports season, sudden financial shit and other things. Anyways, like. I am gonna be pretty mad if he still drinking hard on the day when I need my wisdom teeth removed next week. I’m also gonna be mad if we don’t go to the grocery store soon to pick up things like soft food for that extraction. I wanted to get some of that soft food like three weeks ago when we went to the grocery store, but my dad told me not to do that and that we will go later. Well now it is later, it has to be sometime this week or a little bit of next week. I’m trying not to stress too much about this but I feel like we’re not gonna go to the grocery store, hopefully I’m wrong.

Also doesn’t help my dad car lost his fan belt so he getting that fixed this week, which means he also might drink more.

I kind of hate this, since it just pretty frustrating. It reminds me last year when me and my dad needed to get groceries but my dad didn’t want to because he was drinking very badly and he didn’t want to go to the store at all. so I ended up like rationing food and fasting some days, and also going to my mom to get some food for her. it just pretty frustrating

I watched Come and See, and that was really hard and depressing to watch

it was nice having this space before the federation since it was a place away from that reactionary bs. esp. having a space away from all the transphobia. since like if I want to see reactionary or transphobia and such, I could just go anywhere, it’s easy to find. and I feel like for those who want to debate, they can just go make accounts there? or elsewhere? while still having accounts here to. I dunno. I just hate seeing reactionary shit since it exhausting and tiring, makes me mad and upset and like. just fuck that. having a space away from all that is really nice.

a tankie is someone whose very cool sorry I mean bad and totally not cool or based

Sure you don’t approve of drone striking or killing civilians as you support said actions indirectly in the name of killing “terrorists” or bringing “democracy”. Maybe use those critical thinking skills of yours and think for a moment? Maybe you should go read about all the american atrocities that america does when it is bringing “democracy” or killing “terrorists” like Abu Ghraib for starters. It sure is “strange” how these atrocities keep happening every time america out bringing “democracy” or killing “terrorists”. I wonder why that could be?

Also america pretty authoritarian, and it’s weird that criticism and critical thinking seems to stop as soon as we reach authoritarian countries like America. I mean it’s not like america is the home of mass shooting, the genocide of indigenous people (that still ongoing), home of slavery and mass racism. Home to lots of nasty shit. What do you think of things where America did things like MK ultra to american and canadian citizens? Experimenting on someone own citizens with no consent is pretty authoritarian no? Hell besides that, I’d argue it’s pretty authoritarian how countries like america allow homelessness to exist or refuse to provide proper medical care for it’s people (not without extreme medical debt), or how about the entire prison and justice system? Everything you can accuse of spoopy authoritarian countries doing, america has done it or is doing it.

Like your a fool if you truly believe America is free and democratic. All it tells me you never been on the wrong side of America and experience it’s worst side.

I am getting on you because has it maybe ever occurred to you that I don’t know. Main stream media lies about those spooky authoritarian countries? That they aren’t telling the full truth? That they lie, twist or manipulate? If you have critical thinking skills, you would realize that. You would realize that hey, maybe it’s not true what they say about DPRK or China or wherever else. I mean want an example of media lying? They lied saying that Iraq had weapons of mass destruction. What about the Nayirah testimony? Or in recent times are how like covid suddenly over, the pandemic no longer exists? Despite covid being around? How about the constant downplaying of things like climate change? Hell what about the lies about Ukraine how their suddenly no Nazi’s in Ukraine, despite how main stream media, was talking about those Nazi’s in Ukraine. Funny enough, even the american military was concerned about that. Don’t believe me? Have a read. https://ctc.westpoint.edu/the-nexus-between-far-right-extremists-in-the-united-states-and-ukraine/

but hey feel free to think your smug and superior here because you think you got critical thinking skills as you fall hook line and sinker for propaganda bullshit. Which you can’t entirely be too blame since United States is really good at propaganda. Like maybe at least realize you’re not getting the full truth about things and investigate further, but there no point. I put way too much effort into this when I shouldn’t have.

Boot licking as you defend american imperialism? Are you gonna defend shit like this to where america pretty much just terrorizes school children? like here https://theintercept.com/2020/12/18/afghanistan-cia-militia-01-strike-force/

also how do you feel about shit like this? https://www.salon.com/2015/02/14/i_no_longer_love_blue_skies_what_life_is_like_under_the_constant_threat_of_a_drone_attack_partner/

honestly, fuck you, I didn’t want to say anything but people who defend american imperialism, pisses me the fuck off. You whine about tankies and shit, meanwhile you defend american imperialism that responsible for so much evil, woe and trouble in the world. its funny how you defend america when america hates its own fucking people. literally the country with the biggest incarceration population on the planet, but surely america believes in “freedom” and “democracy”. also what, freedom to starve on the streets? freedom to be homeless? freedom to get into medical debt? that fucking freedom? meanwhile those “authoritarian” like aes countries are more free than america will ever be.

also just want to point something else out but since you care so much about “terrorists”. how do you feel knowing people join up with some of those terrorist groups just so they can defend their homeland because they saw america kill their friends, family, children, and so on? also how you defend some american soldiers doing shit like shotting children just for playing in the streets? fuck right off.

Honduran white bats are the cutest

Which one did you enjoy the most?

Actually my dad just triggered me on something and I’m probably panicking but I cant take it. try telling him he needs to stop, get it under control, and I’m also gonna try to find somewhere to stay for the night somehow but I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take it anymore. I can’t take it anymore.