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13 days agoBeen this way since childhood. Used to get detention/paddled for being late (I’m a child what am I supposed to do drive the car myself at 8 years old?)
Always late to jobs despite leaving what I perceive to be enough time to get there. A lot of places let me slide since I was a good worker.
I don’t know, at this point in my life I don’t think I can change it.
Punctuality is white supremacy and I will not elaborate.
Thinking back, the first thing that started my spiral in highschool and eventually snowballed into me dropping out was a mandatory public speaking assignment in a fucking health class during sophomore year. I was a pretty decent student up until then.
I had really bad social anxiety that no amount of “suck it up and get over it” would have fixed. I wasn’t able to confront and remedy it until years later.
But yeah, forced to give an oral exam in front of a class of 30+, just skipped the entire class, took the F, my grades tanked to the point it was impossible to recover without repeating years and summer school. My mom already barely had enough money as it was, forget going to summer school. So I just dropped out.
The teacher was completely indifferent when I told her in private and gave me the whole “you either do it or fail” so yeah. A year later I dropped out. Life didn’t really turn out much different had I graduated, though so there’s that. Maybe I would’ve struggled less in my 20s, idk.