Incoming pity party: made it to the interview stage of a role that I really felt aligned so well with my skillset only to be told today that again, I was the runner up and there was just someone better. I really had to fight the urge not to full-on cry on the phone when they told me because I was so devastated. I was basically manifesting in my head my future with this job all week (probably not the best idea) because I thought I was such a good candidate and thought the interview went well. It’s very rare for these roles to appear that suit my experience so I really felt almost like it was made for me but now all that hope is…gone. The only feedback they could give was just it went to someone who had different organizational skills so now I feel like maybe I just suck at what I do if there’s people out there who can do it better.
I really need to stop looking at Linkedin. My company went a restructure this year and all the posts from my former co-workers saying they landed jobs at bigger and better organisations is filling me with jealousy. I’ve been trying to change jobs since the start of the year, have even been applying at similiar organisations to theirs but haven’t been successful. I feel so stuck and undesired as an individual.