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Cake day: August 23rd, 2023

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  • You’re good =) in person the immediate obviously item is my physical state, hobbling with a cane, my right arm raised to my chest and bent, hand balled up similar to a fist. It’s the people who can’t see me that are hurtful, assuming the person they are speaking with is able-bodied and such. But yeah, I know I’m not as capable or quick thinking as I was before, but I’m trying to achieve returning as close as I can regardless. I was young when it happened so that’s a ‘plus’, brain still developing and all that. I lost a lot of capabilities (can’t run, jump, swim, carry boxes, cook meals, etc…) and I need help with a lot (retrieving packages, retrieving food or drink, moving objects around, making my bed without it looking awful, shopping, getting around town…) but I can handle essential daily stuff, and if I need to I can struggle to get a snack or order a meal for delivery, or similar. It’s quite… disheartening? To have to rely so much on others for what are otherwise very simple tasks. Especially at my age.

    Anyway, I’ll quiet down :p



  • I used to be really sharp with recall and problem solving. Witty and rapid in discussions. Now, not all the time but, often I’ll have to formulate my thoughts and evaluate them, it’s not boom boom rapid responses, they don’t come ‘naturally’ anymore if that makes sense. I also struggle a lot with breaking words into letters - such as when taking a customers information (“my name is Bob Walker and I live at 426 Cherry Blossom Circuit and I want to order a…”). I have helped a business I used to work for pre-stroke on busy holidays, manning the phones and front desk, and people are assholes when you ask them to repeat information but slowly, one letter at a time. It annoys me but then customers get frustrated and yell at me (yet they won’t order their stuff online, which would be easier and faster, and with offered coupons… sigh). Just a couple examples.

    It’s noticeable to me, so (I assume) it must be quite obvious to others.


  • I mean, I suffered a stroke back in 2014 that essentially ended my life - I’m still here but I’m not ‘living’, partially blind, cognative issues, light memory loss, heavy physical struggles. My fiancé (I’m gay so not exactly apples to apples) left me after it became apparent that I wasn’t going to improve very much more than I already had, through therapy and physical tricks. “I don’t think I love you anymore” and “I didn’t sign up for this” are two statements burned into my brain. The last one really pisses me off, even now - I’m so sorry that a stroke that I suffered and wasn’t supposed to live through is so difficult for you. I’ll be sure to meet with you and look at my calendar next time I lose a large part of my physical control and come to a knifes edge of death. So sorry about that struggle.









  • No actually requirement to remain on pci, other than not wanting to buy new hardware if I don’t have to (money is tight too, being disabled and all) - I’ve been using pci sound blaster cards for 20 years now, and one of the current two has been in my box for nearly (maybe actually) 15 years now? The SB Z, and SB AE-5. There’s also the slight preference of not having more stuff dangling out of the back of my box, but I could get over that I guess. I’ve never looked at USB solutions (or anything external really) so I don’t know anything about them, other than they exist.

    I’d also like to retain software settings (I guess hardware switches, if available as an alternative) if at all possible, which as far as I can tell, I cannot on the cards I currently have (SB software is windows-only). Since currently my use case is gaming + music on the one card, while voice chat on the other, that way I can get clear voices on my headset at a lower volume while my 5.1 gives me louder, positional game audio. Both speakers and headset are 3.5mm, as I know the SB cards work well, so (at purchase) I wanted the only thing altering the signal was the SB card itself, instead of using say a Logitech USB headset with its own independent controls or something, bypassing. I swear off wireless headsets for this reason.

    It basically comes down to ‘it’s what I’ve always used’ and ‘don’t fix what isn’t broken’, with a sprinkle of ‘I don’t trust anything else or know of what to look for’ :P

    Got suggestions on where to start looking/brands to check into?

    Thanks ^_^