I’ve known since I was a kid that I’m depressed. I even have infant photos of me, where I look like I just hate life. Other baby photos the baby is smiling, and interested in everything. Whereas I look like even though I’m too young to even have thoughts, I’m still giving off body language of “leave me alone”.
But when I started asking everyone I knew if they too were depressed, I haven’t gotten one single person to say that they’re happy. Everyone has said they’re depressed. So now I wonder if it’s a regional thing, or if everyone everywhere is depressed.
Both clinically and in reference to current events/future issues.
It has been at least 20 years that I’ve dealt with depression and simply not wanting to exist anymore. It’s probably only around 6-8 that I’ve also lost hope, developed frequent panic attacks, and have become depressed about my own future. I separate that from what I’d consider to be the “clinical” depression that is just my broken brain. The future of everyone globally is a whole nother layer of depression…
As for those around me, everyone seems “happy” as far as they can be with their lot in life. Not depressed, some are just bummed about specific things.