I’m not saying what’s going on because I dead ass know what everyone is going to say and it’s just pointless anyways.

I’ve basically already given up but gone now is the pretense of wanting to try. No more plans to start transitioning again. No more rehab. No more exfoliating. No more wanting to learn how to make plushies. No more silly hopes and dreams. No more trying to dress nice and look cool. It’s all fucking gone.

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    5 months ago

    I am sorry you feel like this. I have been through a lot, so I know the feeling of wanting to give up very well. All I can say is that I am really glad I never actually completely gave up. Giving up will not make you feel better.

    I am not sure whether you are angry, you sound angry. So, do what you have to do to deal with this feeling. Screaming in my car and punching a pillow works for me. And then think about why things are not working the way you want it and try something new.

  • FourteenEyes [he/him]@hexbear.net
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    5 months ago

    Hey don’t do that. Don’t give up. Just take a break. Temporarily stop giving a fuck to give your brain time to rebuild itself out of mush. Be kind to yourself and focus on simple stuff. Please. People care about you.

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    It’s okay to stop trying. You are allowed to rest. You deserve to rest.

    If you have given up on hope that’s understandable. I don’t know your life or your circumstances but I know they are far from being something that anyone would call easy. If you want, there are some people here who can take on the task of carrying hope for you if it’s too much for you to do yourself. In fact I know that there are people here who do this already.

    It means a lot that you would reach out and tell us how you are feeling. People care about you. The world is better for you being in it.

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    I love you, and I hope this is only a break, and that it doubles the conviction you had.

    I’m sorry it’s so hard.