I’ve posted here a lot about my mental health, I lost basically everything, I have no one I can talk to, my car is wrecked, I have less than 100 bucks in my bank account, while I have housing their are problems that make it not the best. I have 1k in debt.

In terms of my housing, I lived with some members a activist group for a bit, but they got too extreme the the point where they think me wanting to pay of my debt, save up for a car is individualist and me wanting to go college is carrierist.

Another thing is I’m an unattractive trans fem, que transphobia, I know y’all are gonna laugh like hell when I blow my brains out, some of y’all might be like THIS IS THE Consequences OF GENDER IDEOLOGY.

I just really don’t see a way forward at all, I felt like there isn’t much for me in this world anymore. Everytime I call a suicide hotline I get the dumbest most braindead advice like do an activity I enjoy as if that changes any of the material conditions of my life.

My plan is to have a dead switch, so when I do die 911 is called to help avoid any unnecessary trauma. It’s crazy to think 22 years ends like this.

  • stinerman [Ohio]@midwest.social
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    2 months ago

    Look at all these people who don’t know you at all trying to offer you help.

    Yeah we are all insignificant on a long timeline. Who cares? That’s the ultimate freedom to do what you want with your life.

    I’ve been in a mental hospital for depression twice. I understand a bit of where you’re coming from (I’m a straight cis man so I can’t speak to the rest). I’m telling you IT DOES GET BETTER. Hang in there!