I’ve posted here a lot about my mental health, I lost basically everything, I have no one I can talk to, my car is wrecked, I have less than 100 bucks in my bank account, while I have housing their are problems that make it not the best. I have 1k in debt.
In terms of my housing, I lived with some members a activist group for a bit, but they got too extreme the the point where they think me wanting to pay of my debt, save up for a car is individualist and me wanting to go college is carrierist.
Another thing is I’m an unattractive trans fem, que transphobia, I know y’all are gonna laugh like hell when I blow my brains out, some of y’all might be like THIS IS THE Consequences OF GENDER IDEOLOGY.
I just really don’t see a way forward at all, I felt like there isn’t much for me in this world anymore. Everytime I call a suicide hotline I get the dumbest most braindead advice like do an activity I enjoy as if that changes any of the material conditions of my life.
My plan is to have a dead switch, so when I do die 911 is called to help avoid any unnecessary trauma. It’s crazy to think 22 years ends like this.
If you are going to end your life, maybe consider taking a big life change and see what happens. Unsure what as like you said, you have limited funds, but I encourage you to explore even ridiculous options as what do you have to loose if you are considering loosing everything anyways? Like maybe there is a place on the other side of the planet that needs volunteers and will provide room and board.
This is good advice. Sometimes suicide isn’t so much about wanting to die, as about wanting to escape one’s own life. A drastic change in life is a good plan, because it’s another way out, that’s not so final as death.