Narcissist here. My NPD is a mental health issue. My parents abused me, and I never learned to love myself unconditionally as a result. The ego I do have is a fragile facade. Threats to my ego can feel subjectively like threats to my life, because when I don’t have my false ego, I don’t think I’m worthy of life. Some narcisstists perceive threats to their egos as violence, and they respond with violence. I don’t act that way, but I do perceive attacks on my disability as violence, and I don’t believe anyone should have to hear that.
Material conditions are never going to solve my NPD, because I’m too old to learn to love myself unconditionally. The brain loses plasticity as it ages, and what we’re talking about is early childhood stuff. What I can benefit from is a more caring and understanding environment, and one that doesn’t attack narcisstists for being abuse victims. One that understands my special needs and provides them, even when they are social needs as opposed to physical needs.
I used to be married to someone who got damaged so seriously so early in life that a normal relationship with him was ultimately impossible and I couldn’t really provide the social needs this person needed without completely denying my own needs. The only way I found to deal with it was to move very far away. I guess if we hadn’t been married and forced ourselves to live together it could have been different - another factor here was the lack of healthy community.
I’m curious about what you perceive as attack on your disability. If it is the terminology thing: I’m ranting rather about the terminology (Narcissist, Autistic, Schizophrenic, Psychopath) as a symbol of an authoritarian, abusive psychiatric system that judges people as being disordered, out of order, without addressing the underlying causes - the trauma, the abusive setup of society, the competitive setup that causes people to be aggressive … so yes, we are all damaged, and each of us in different, specific ways that can be categorized and their categorization can be helpful for our self-awareness-process - but I don’t want to use the language of people who call me disordered when really I’m just mainly neurodiverse and for the rest mostly traumatized.
The challenge for each of us in a solarpunk society is to find a place where we are somewhat useful, or at least not of harm to others. As a neurofunky person I have already chosen a place a little away from other people because the weirded-out-ness is mutual and I need it quiet. I try to be of use without meeting too many actual people and what used to be ‘my mental health’ is now only just me again, which is very good.
Narcissist here. My NPD is a mental health issue. My parents abused me, and I never learned to love myself unconditionally as a result. The ego I do have is a fragile facade. Threats to my ego can feel subjectively like threats to my life, because when I don’t have my false ego, I don’t think I’m worthy of life. Some narcisstists perceive threats to their egos as violence, and they respond with violence. I don’t act that way, but I do perceive attacks on my disability as violence, and I don’t believe anyone should have to hear that.
Material conditions are never going to solve my NPD, because I’m too old to learn to love myself unconditionally. The brain loses plasticity as it ages, and what we’re talking about is early childhood stuff. What I can benefit from is a more caring and understanding environment, and one that doesn’t attack narcisstists for being abuse victims. One that understands my special needs and provides them, even when they are social needs as opposed to physical needs.
I used to be married to someone who got damaged so seriously so early in life that a normal relationship with him was ultimately impossible and I couldn’t really provide the social needs this person needed without completely denying my own needs. The only way I found to deal with it was to move very far away. I guess if we hadn’t been married and forced ourselves to live together it could have been different - another factor here was the lack of healthy community.
I’m curious about what you perceive as attack on your disability. If it is the terminology thing: I’m ranting rather about the terminology (Narcissist, Autistic, Schizophrenic, Psychopath) as a symbol of an authoritarian, abusive psychiatric system that judges people as being disordered, out of order, without addressing the underlying causes - the trauma, the abusive setup of society, the competitive setup that causes people to be aggressive … so yes, we are all damaged, and each of us in different, specific ways that can be categorized and their categorization can be helpful for our self-awareness-process - but I don’t want to use the language of people who call me disordered when really I’m just mainly neurodiverse and for the rest mostly traumatized.
The challenge for each of us in a solarpunk society is to find a place where we are somewhat useful, or at least not of harm to others. As a neurofunky person I have already chosen a place a little away from other people because the weirded-out-ness is mutual and I need it quiet. I try to be of use without meeting too many actual people and what used to be ‘my mental health’ is now only just me again, which is very good.