What is this??? I know some of you have experienced it, because on very rare occasion it’s come up in the past on other autism discussion groups I’ve been a part of. Sometimes somebody will make a post about burnout and say something like “the knowledge just fell out of my head” when talking about trying to work/think about complex topics while burnt out.

In my case, once I get too burnt out from overstimulation or nonstop social exposure, I get cognitive effects that last for days or weeks afterwards. In some sense, I get “dumber.” But this isn’t that, exactly, though I’m sure it’s related.

Background, and an example: I do web & software development for work. I also live in a place which is a poor fit for my sensitivities, so I’ve been in chronic burnout for years, and I’m pushed further into acute high-intensity (as in, I become “lower functioning”) burnout a few times a year.

I find that once I pass a certain point in burnout, I get to the point where I need to do a complex task, such as some web dev work, or for another example, filling out a bunch of government forms to keep some critical benefit or another flowing while I figure this all out. And I get inertia. But the inertia feels different than the usual inertia. The only way I can describe it is that it feels like in order to do the task, it’s going to “rope in” knowledge of so many related things, that my brain realizes it’s going to become overloaded and just sort of freezes up and deadlocks at the prospect.

These are tasks that require a good deal of focus and thinking, but which are well within my ability when I’m able to meet my sensory needs.

Anyway … just wanted to make a thread for speculation and chatting about this, I guess. What is it? Demand avoidance? Conditioned response? Creepily accurate emotional representation of some kind of actual brain overload failure condition??