I also know not everybody will be fine and be able to cope better if left alone. I will, but it was a long damn journey to get to where I’m able to say that with confidence. If you’re somebody who needs to be alone but won’t be fine if you are, I see you too.

This should probably be my job description, but life got in the way before I speciated from generic backend software engineer. I’m doing something analogous, in that I’ve been putting together a ‘stack’ on top of Proxmox and super portable hardware so that I can self-host nearly everything I need on my own hardware while not having a permanent place to live.

webshit

anybody need a Wordpress site built, rehabbed, or tilled & weeded? help a homeslice not be homeless

Sony’s current cheap models are a lot better than the XM3s. I know that pressure sensation, I’d given up on all noise canceling headphones because I hate it, but tried a pair of (cheap!) Sony WH-CH720N and that sensation is 98% reduced, it only appears a little if there’s a ton of bass noise in the environment. But even then, it’s not nearly as bad as most other (older) NC headphones I’ve tried.

Aka “musicians earplugs” … which can be premade, or if you actually want the best fidelity, custom molded to fit your actual ear canal! Had a gf who was a post-punk musician once, she absolutely swore by her custom pair.

Hi, I would recommend the Sony WH-CH720N as punching way above their weight for a $100 pair.

I am someone who didn’t like noise canceling headphones which I tried before, since older models all seemed to cause a sensation of “pressure” on my eardrums which felt like having dead meat behind saran wrap smushed up against them. The Sony WH-CH720N have about 98% removed that sensation, which means I can actually wear them for more than 10 minutes.

The noise canceling feature isn’t perfect - you can of course still hear some noise - but it’s about as good as the Bose Quiet Comfort 3 pair which cost a LOT more than the Sony.

They feel the same about me when I decline the opportunity to get shitfaced drunk and banter over 17 games of “Mexican train dominoes” for the 59574th time.

The only person I have to babble at has level 2 autism and can only process a finite (and very small) number of words per day before she combusts 😭

I lose the ability to open most mail once I have processed too many qualia per unit time

hah sadly no, was paying for the pot electronically, thought to cash the check at the nearby CU for gas money!!

also is anyone here familiar with the symptom “going without banking for 4 months” because they locked your web account and so, that was it

so much Potentially Dangerous Mail from agencies, bureaux, and corporations (people [amoral]) 😬

when self-hating people who’ve learned a little about genetics and evolution pipe up with “why are we even still in the gene pool” sadposts … this is why. overall, this style of thinking is a net positive to the proliferation of Homo sapiens, and every now and then even a net positive to the people who embody it.

RIP Elijah McClain

I just wanted to say I read everything and you’re not crazy to be wondering what the fuck.

This phenomenon, evoked by Too Much Shit Going On Around Me, is in some sense destroying my life.

I mean, the alternate path I’ve been on because of sensory sensitivity + autistic inertia has taught me a ton of valuable shit over the past half decade, so if I ever manage to get into a better situation I’ll be so much better prepared than I ever was before, now that I understand this stuff… but I’m trading years of my life for the insight, years spent locked in by inertia for a great portion of almost every single day… plus a not-small measure of damage to my health from all the fucking drugs I have to take in order to not go absolutely insane, become completely dysregulated, be constantly highkey suicidal etc in such a scenario.

Also, a tangent, but I really wish there were fewer typos in this paper, this kind of research is utterly critical to getting a better living situation for millions of people on the spectrum, and the typos don’t help that. K, done complaining about my pet peeve.

I realized that I do the ‘tell everyone’ stage because I’m trying to recruit a body double so I’ll stick with the project 😅

In my case if I go weeks on end with no break from human presence, I will start hallucinating muffled conversations and fan-like drones etc at all times when there isn’t sufficiently loud complex noise, and also I’ll see “bugs” constantly in the corner of my vision, like jump scare - there’s a spider on the wall, oh wait no there isn’t type thing, but 50 times a day. also can get lost parsing sensory input in shared spaces, allowing people to sneak up on me (usually impossible due to the 3D hearing which I can never shut off) and give me a jump scare.

Between this and the manufacturer/DEA created “shortages” it’s brutal out there.

pls enjoy a recent research paper: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/32538895/