TheSpectreOfGay [he/him, she/her]

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Cake day: January 2nd, 2021

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  • I have mixed thoughts on therapy, I started it a few months ago (my health care provider offered me free therapy, yippee) and the most helpful things my therapist has done for me is recommend me books that go in depth into a subject.

    There are some things I could never tell my therapist bc I know they’d try to “fix” me (namely the fact I’m plural), and dealing with that would probably do a lot of harm. I can’t tell them about any self-harming thoughts because I’ll be institutionalized. But it has been helpful to work through understanding my abusive relationship, how to deal with anxiety, how to navigate my relationship with my parents in a safe way that won’t get me kicked out, etc.

    Basically I don’t know everything about the world or myself and having someone tell me what they know is useful, but the interactions also inherently feel somewhat adversarial because of the aforementioned reasons, which limits the effectiveness. I sure as fuck wouldn’t pay money for it, lol.










  • innocent, im not, but im occassionally sex repulsed and also like, have trauma around being sworn at, so i usually pretend to not get sex things and hate swearing so people don’t bring it up around me. you can really shut down dirty jokes by being like “what’s that? :3” if people really believe that you genuinely don’t know and don’t want to ruin your innocence. but like, im polyam and into bdsm, lmao.

    really outgoing and pushy. it’s tiring for me. but people will never initiate conversations to maintain friendships, so if i want to do that i have to. it’s kinda annoying and makes me feel not appreciated but i know they just don’t want to be awkward.

    and uh not plural, i hate explaining what DID is to people and i hate having to deal with their preconceptions about it. whenever i wanna talk about my alters i pretend they’re OCs for dnd or something so i don’t have to explain all that baggage with it.