I have trouble telling what the pain in my stomach is telling me, so I pretty much only just realized how bad my body hates certain sensory and social stuff. It’s as though my insides were on fire and the only way to slightly affect it is to cry (and obvi get away from the noise). I thought it was just anxiety or under stimulation before, but no, those are separate things. I have spent hours today doing various self care type stuff (meditation, being in nature, exercising, mindfully eating, yoga nitra, massage, taking a bath, fun things on the internet, positive stimulus of other sorts, zoning out), and the feeling’s still there. I don’t even mask. How do you deal with having to be in a sensory hell for hours of the day? How do you calm down? Please don’t say drugs.
Context: ADHD often makes people struggle with interoception and being able to relax.
Oh I may be a noob who doesn’t understand my body that well, but I’m pretty sure I know which things trigger me and what sensations I like, but the thing is I cant escape this particular environment most the time (I’m being vague not to doxx), at least I should be getting good ND endorsed noise cancelling headphones soon. A lot of sensations and stims I have identified mostly feel good when I’m already feeling good, and I don’t know when that is besides when I’m high out of my mind because the ADHD finally let the dopamine and energy get to me for a day. Baths can sometimes feel great, but today’s and the previous one mostly made me feel uncomfortably intoxicated. Overstimulation horseshoe theory. I also know a lot of things I’m interested in, but unless I want to learn everything at once often everything seems boring.
Damn I relate to pretty much all of that. Good luck fighting the good fight out there, we all deserve better.